I STILL REMEMBER

Five years ago today, my son was in second grade. He was attending his second year, at St. Johns Catholic School. I was just getting into my car, when the school secretary said "an air plane just hit one of the Twin Towers in New York." I didn't think much of it, until I got home, and turned on the TV. This is when, I found out that, this was no accident. Not to mention that, I got home just in time to see, the second plane hit the second tower. I took me back, to the time of our Oklahoma City Bombing. That feeling of udder fear, fell over my body all over again. I didn't think that, I'd ever feel this way again.

I spent the remainder of the day, and the days following, just watching TV. Again, this happened following our bombing. However, at that time, my son was only 13 months old. I had not much else to do, put tend to him and watch TV. Although, after the bombing, I forgot how ever consuming that the TV would be. Again, I fell into a deep depression. In the days following, air travel was stopped. I can remember that, my Great Aunt Grace, had a hard time getting home.

My husband, our three boys and I, had just been on vacation to South Padre Island Texas the month before. Can you believe that, I havn't traveled by air since? My husband, had only once, for his Grandmother's funeral. Has September 11, 2001 effected my world? I would have to say, yes definetly. I still remember...

IT IS OVER RATED

Yesterday, without much fuss. I agreed to let my husband attend a Bachelor Party out of town. The party, was held about two hours away, at Lake Texoma Oklahoma. My husband's good friend, owns a lake house there. The three of them, have been freinds, for many years. A few others, were suppose to come down, for the party as well. The plans were that, they would watch Football, eat steaks, and play Poker. Whereas, "The Bachelor" has been married before. Therefore, Strip Bars, were not an issue this time. Some much so that, he has been married three times before.

I suppose that, when you're in your early 40's, it's not that big of a deal as well. However, I've digressed from, the real issue here. Not only, did I not fuss about him going, I'm also without kids this weekend. Which means that, I'll be completely alone. Not at all a bad deal. It's just that, I purposly stayed in last night. This is so that, I wouldn't get into trouble. Things like, drunk driving trouble. Not to mention that, I wouldn't have my husband, to fend off men at a bar. So, three of our friends came over, to have some drinks and watch a movie. I thought that, this was very mature of me.

However, I should have just went out, and acted like a fool. It seems as though, my husband is having trouble answering his phone. Last night, his cell phone was, inside the house while they were playing cards. It honestly upset me. I was just wondering how he was, and what they were up to. Although much later, he did call me back. It didn't help though, I was already disgusted. They same thing happened this morning. Thankfully, he called me, just a few minutes ago. He apologized for not answering his cell hone. After nearly severs years of marriage. You would think that, I'm over trying to keep a leash on him.

However, it seems as though I'm not. The problem being, he is always home, and being a good boy. Our freind put it this way last night. It's very unnerving to know that, your husband is out with his friends. Her husband, couldn't understand why I was upset. I ask her, "do you want to take this one for me?" This is when, she explained this to her new husband, of only 11 months. Just as she put it, "you will never understand." Never-the-less, if my husband does as plans. He should be home about 3:00 P.M. this afternoon. Otherwise, I'll still be upset with him. Again, like I said last night, "Bachelor partys are over rated." I'm still crazy ya'll!

PRICELESS

A painful mouth... Two and 1/2 years... Trips to the orthodontst... Losing 10 pounds... $ 4000.00... No chewing gum... Goofy Middle School pictures... One beautiful High School Senior picture... Priceless!