IN PIECES
Both my eldest dog and I seem to be in pieces. Mine of a femine nature, his more fatal. We have determined that he is not responding to the medicine that the vet perscribed for him. The medication did not help his failing kidneys. The damage was too extensive an irreversable. He is getting around ok, but still not eating on his own. I am still having to supplement his nutrition for him. My Husband says that, I am force feeding him. I guess that I am. Although, I'd do anything to keep him alive. However, Doc said that, I needed to make a decision by this weeks end. He will not get his appitite back. If that were ever to happen, it already would have. Last Friday, he had another appointment. This appointment was just a weigh in. He had lost another pound. This weighs him in at, only 35 pounds. He normally weighs around 52 pounds. The poor guy, is just a mere shadow of himself.
Doc was also concerned about, me going in for my surgery just completely exhausted. If I could have saved him, until he regained his strength; it would be of no consequence if I was exhausted. The other concern was, that no one would we home to feed and water him, as well as I do. I explained to him that, if he did in fact respond to the medicine that; someone would take care of him with no problem. Again, I hated to hear from Doc that, I would have to make that dreaded decision. My parents said that, I will be doing him a favor. Also that, he can't tell you how he feels. He could be suffering, even if he doesn't look like it. This will be, one of the hardest things that, I have had to do in a long time. Your pets do become your family. They are just like another one of your children.
Everyone tells me that, he has had a good, full life. Again, he has outlived the normal life expentency of a Shar Pei. Doc said that, if you get a decade out of a Shar Pei, you have done somehting right. I only wish that, he would have lived to see his 10th Birthday in December. Although, I know that, I will forever feel guilty. Maybe if, my surgery hadn't been in the near future that, I could have decicated all of my time and energy to him. Not that, I hadn't been anyway. Again, everyone tells me that, I have tried. I did in fact, buy him an extra two weeks of life. However, my Mom said that, his quality of life is not good right now. I just honestly feel bad physically, but emotionally as well. Hopefully after my Dog passes, and my surgery is over, I will feel better. My heart is just very heavy right now.
Both my eldest dog and I seem to be in pieces. Mine of a femine nature, his more fatal. We have determined that he is not responding to the medicine that the vet perscribed for him. The medication did not help his failing kidneys. The damage was too extensive an irreversable. He is getting around ok, but still not eating on his own. I am still having to supplement his nutrition for him. My Husband says that, I am force feeding him. I guess that I am. Although, I'd do anything to keep him alive. However, Doc said that, I needed to make a decision by this weeks end. He will not get his appitite back. If that were ever to happen, it already would have. Last Friday, he had another appointment. This appointment was just a weigh in. He had lost another pound. This weighs him in at, only 35 pounds. He normally weighs around 52 pounds. The poor guy, is just a mere shadow of himself.
Doc was also concerned about, me going in for my surgery just completely exhausted. If I could have saved him, until he regained his strength; it would be of no consequence if I was exhausted. The other concern was, that no one would we home to feed and water him, as well as I do. I explained to him that, if he did in fact respond to the medicine that; someone would take care of him with no problem. Again, I hated to hear from Doc that, I would have to make that dreaded decision. My parents said that, I will be doing him a favor. Also that, he can't tell you how he feels. He could be suffering, even if he doesn't look like it. This will be, one of the hardest things that, I have had to do in a long time. Your pets do become your family. They are just like another one of your children.
Everyone tells me that, he has had a good, full life. Again, he has outlived the normal life expentency of a Shar Pei. Doc said that, if you get a decade out of a Shar Pei, you have done somehting right. I only wish that, he would have lived to see his 10th Birthday in December. Although, I know that, I will forever feel guilty. Maybe if, my surgery hadn't been in the near future that, I could have decicated all of my time and energy to him. Not that, I hadn't been anyway. Again, everyone tells me that, I have tried. I did in fact, buy him an extra two weeks of life. However, my Mom said that, his quality of life is not good right now. I just honestly feel bad physically, but emotionally as well. Hopefully after my Dog passes, and my surgery is over, I will feel better. My heart is just very heavy right now.
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